Some call it habit, some call it addiction, some call it abuse, what does matters is, it was a bad idea from the start and for the rest of my life I regretted it. I shouldn’t have even thought about it much less engage in it but I was too far gone to go back on my actions, and, like I said earlier, we tend to forget that our actions have repercussions and we are bound to face them either we like them or not. The same masturbation I took solace in to substitute for the girls turned out to be more distracting than girl’s problem and that’s saying something. I figured I couldn’t possibly win this war so I switched to trying as much as possible to balance it with my education while fighting it or I might just as well put off fighting it till I am fully equipped to. Wrong again!